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The best thing about livejournal is that, most people don't read mine anyway. And with that I feel like this is my safe haven. A little quiet away from the noise and buzz they call the social network. Funny how it seems this imagery is almost as real as it gets. But I ramble on. Oh and the best part is you can press enter without the damn post publishing rightaway.






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But i digress. I must say that my truest feelings and words are left here on this very page that you, my friend, are reading. And its only the truest words that allow you to see a person for who he/she really is. 



Today I believe, I have reached an agreement with myself that in life, there are many ties that bind. Some constrict you while others prevent you from falling. The key to this is figuring out what is and what isn't. Regrets we all have a few. But through regrets begin change and through change begins new life. I guess what i'm really trying to say is that making that decision has been costly for me. In all aspects of my life, I am affected. But adaptability kicks in and I learn. I realise that sometimes, the friends you thought you had are now the friends you don't. So you live and let live. You cut off yourself and learn to move on. For progress is the only option as regression would only accelerate as the world moves forward. I wish I was an idealist. One who could build castles in the air and live in them. However, I seem to be the one that is continually breaking down the walls of Jericho. Putting reality as my standard of decision making. Pragmatism and practicality seem to be the driving force behind the decisions of my brain. It really eats at me sometimes, but at the end of the day, I know it is for the better. For what was may not necessarily be what is. 

Like an othello seed.
Black, White.
Two different sides yet on the same body.
Unpredictable
Seeing how it can go either way.
Whether light or dark,
There is no grey.
The winner,
Unclear
Until the last seed is placed.
Four corner stones
Allowing for supremacy and
Better odds.
Black or white?
which would you choose.

I have half a mind to just not send in my applications to nus and smu so mum will send me to sydney. hmm...
dinner. bye

Its finally here. The letter of offer from the University of Sydney to read law and international studies. Its a five year double degree programme that i'm really interested in. I guess i can say i'm happy that i got the offer. But now comes the hard part. Do i go or not?

I'm serving out the first 17 days of my house arrest and its become a rather routine thing for me. I wake up feeling the ache in my leg, have a nice breakfast of either egg and sausage omelette or my favourite economic noodles. Following which I have to take my glucosamine pills and up until recently, (yay), painkillers. Then I crutch my way back to the laptop to stream videos (at the moment, i live eat and drink bleach), then I get ready for whoever is visiting me for the day. By then, lunch is over and visitors come. I entertain til I get rather tired then when they leave its about time for dinner. After dinner its yet another round of bleach until i fall asleep. On the plus side, I only take three meals a day and see a lil bit of weight loss. On the down side, I find myself facing the big question each day : what am I going to do today?

I must however thank the certain few who have made an effort to come by and visit me. I'm kinda too lazy to mention names but you guys know who you are. It has been nice having company over and catching up with familiar faces. I certainly hope that more will come and revisit.

My leg has seen remarkable improvement since day 1 of the operation of which I had the walking capabilities of a seal. By day three I was like a penguin. And now at day 10, i'm more or less like a chimp. I just hope that soon I can walk about freely and be able to go out of the house. Lockdown is not funny at all. Especially when chinese new year is coming and you have no new clothes to wear. Or do I? Hmm... Maybe I do afterall. haha.

I seriously have no clue why is it that after spending three days on pulau tekong doing the BMT POP, would the band want to have cohesion day the next at Sentosa. Its rather funny innit? Like we get burnt on tekong and our idea of unwinding is to get sunburnt on a different island. hmm =/ I do however have to agree that I had much fun today playing in the sand and sea. As usual, I got thrown into the water. Sure. Target the big one. Set a tsunami. checked. Honestly speaking, today was really the most fun i've had in quite a while. Playing touch rugby in the sand, wrestling in the water, the funny shots we have taken. It really has been some day eh band? That being said, I have to say sayonara to most of you guys since I won't have to go back to work til 1ST JANUARY. yes. I'm clearing leave and off all the way til then! muahaha. Be jealous bitches. But that's the way the cookie crumbles aye. I'm one burnt, constipated, happy P.A. =p

I realised that I'm not a very consistent blogger. Like I actually hardly blog at all. Although i do find myself in situations that i have things to blog about many times. Nonetheless, here I find myself again, blogging. It feels like time passes very slowly during the weekends and quickly during weekdays for me now. Not that I'm insane or anything, but seriously, i'm beginning to really think that my vocation for national service is Godsent. Seriously. I am like THIS thankful that i'm in this vocation. I've also been thinking of taking up classes to occupy myself and further hone my skills. I'm thinking of doing jazz piano. Either that or maybe learn a new language. But i'm thinking more of jazz piano cos that's something i've always wanted to explore. And apparently they do have graded exams for that! Now imagine that! Having a grade in jazz piano. funky.

Oh, and if you are reading this, Chua Si Hui, you owe Nura and me one big meetup session! I miss you many many siol! We have things to talk about and personal projects to achieve! so yes. CALL ME. okay. Naruto is calling me. I have to go. GOSH I'M TURNING INTO ONE OF THOSE ANIME FREAKS. NOT.

Just applied to University of Sydney instead of ANU. Reason being that I no longer qualify for law school there. They only just raised the bar to at least TWO H2 As. I must admit though that the USyd Law school prof did paint me a very exciting picture of reading law in sydney. I'm actually quite psyched to have this shot. However, lets not all get too excited just in case my bubble gets popped and I don't make it there afterall. But still, at least i've finally applied and have somewhat of an inkling as to where to go. I guess that final prayer really made a lot of difference. I am also gonna be studying Internationalnal and Galobal Studies. I am in NS STILL. okay. random. but i had to do it just to satisfy myself! I'm taking a concurrent degree leading to a Bachelors in International and Global Studies. Before you guys all go o.0??? on me, I&G studies encompasses stuff like anthropology, asian studies, american studies, european studies, cultural studies and so on. Its really quite interesting! well, at least to me. But anyways, I'm really hoping that i get the place in USyd!

New trainee batch comes in on monday. I'm quite excited that I'm gonna have a junior and I won't have to do all the shit work. Okay, maybe I don't already not do the shit work. (thanks James.) But now I get to tell him what to do! heh. Sigh. Sad thing is that I'm now lacking one very fantastic bitching partner. Like who am I going to tease now and have some form of a challenge in return?! I need a new target. Maybe there'll be a few bimbos in the new batch for me to tekan. hmm. right. okay back to Super Smash Bros. Brawl. heh. i am so loving the new Wii.